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Monday, August 22, 2005
6:37 PM
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i tried hard to hold it back ...

END RESULT : tears came streaming down my cheeks while i was on the way home .

lots of things went thru my head . but i didnt have an ans for any of it .

im realli puzzled to why do people change so fast ? someone wasnt liddat in the past . someone cud wait for me patiently .. n it's alwyus a smile i see on someone's face . i rarely do now . .. does a suggestion kills ? wads wrg with coming up with a suggestion ? i just dun wan someone to feel like it's a need to meet me all the time . i just wan someone to be happy . but this is wad i get ..

i alwyus share with rebecca wad i plan for someone .. the happy times we had .. i've lots of ideas in my head . even rebecca said someone will be happy if i did this n that . but things just dun work out the way i wan it to be . i oso told her the suprises i have instore for someone .

am i expecting too much ? ... or giving too much ?

i dun blame someone totally . ya . i do have a fault . but i realli wanted to meet someone today , just now . hais .

what went wrg again ?

i dun wanna tink bout it ..............
life's unfair . everyone is like the weather . it keeps changing .. ..

did i make a mistake ?

-out-